That thing

WHY I CAN'T DELETE SOMETHING FROM MY HEAD? I WOULD FORGET AND TAKE IT OUT FROM MY MEMMORY. ALTHOUGH IT HAS BEEN A PRECIOUS THING FOR A LONG TIME, BUT I HAVE TO FORGET AND IGNORE IT. IT'S ONLY ONE THING THAT I HAVE..AND NEVER FIND ANOTHER. I REALLY KNOW THE STATUS AND GAP ARE BEING AS USUAL. EVERYDAY I LIVE WITH SUFFERING AND ENDURING. I NEVER SMILE OR LAUGH WITH TRUELY FEELING. ACTUALLY, IT SIMILAR TO FAKE ALL THE TIME COS MY HEART STILL THINK OF THAT THING. I CAN'T STOP TO THINKING AT ALL. I TRY TO MAKE IT BETTER BY HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS OR BE WITH A LOT OF PEOPLE, BUT IT'S WORTHLESS. I'M TIRED WITH BREATHING DAY AFTER DAY. I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE FOR RELAX, MAYBE IT'S THE WAY TO HELP ME. NOWADAYS I FORCE MYSELF TO HATE THAT THING. SO THAT THING ARE BOTH THE THING THAT I LOVE AND THE THING THAT I HATE IN THE SAME TIME..... DISAPPOINTED!